we confuse a lonely-restless combination for the need to do something
"Fun" . When I feel like I need to lose myself in "fun" I am actually
needed some deep fulfillment in my spirit, not bells and whistles or
real hot ass. lol Faux-feelment versus Fulfillment has got me into
trouble most of my life. lol I know the difference today but that
doesn't always bar me from seeking outside titillation. I have that
choice today and I can way the pro's, con's and consequences. Recovery
lets me do that.