I woke up this morning. I didn't "come to". I gently came out of my sleep and allowed my brain to orient me. I remembered I had a really great day yesterday. I took care of myself with 2 meetings, no smoking and I didn't over eat and NO DRUGS. I extended myself with truth to a trusted friend and was received lovingly. I was really "with" all the people I was actually with and I think I extended myself to a stranger. I made the most out of being a human on the 3rd rock that I could possibly be. I am proud of myself and inspired that if I do the same things today, I will wake up tomorrow and be in good position to wake up feeling like that again.
I read some inspiring notes this morning and I am filled with gratitude and hope. Those are two things that I don't come by easily. They should be the most natural things in the world to have when you are a human, like me that has so much to be thankful for. BUT, I am an addict. I see things upside down and occasionally backwards. I need other addicts to redirect my thinking on the days I simply can't find the way to peace on my own.
When I started writing music, the first thing I realized was no one can tell you you're singing a song wrong if it is your own song, truth and music your singing. I am so thankful today that I know some big truths about myself that no one can dispute. I may introduce myself to a stranger because I have been suggested to, but the connection of caring and truth is uniquely mine. Compassion is under valued in America. I know most people won't get this, but the energy that is created when I love a stranger or a friend, without expectation or motive I create a live energy that is released into the universe that feeds the source of all goodness, whatever that is, God, Buddha or a little old lady that lives in Flint Michigan who is secretly pulling all the strings.
The opposite force of love, which I think is fear will rob me of any peace, satisfaction or serenity I have when I surrender to its distrust. Fear waits for me to be dishonest and then uses my very own actions to separate me from the herd and become vulnerable. My name is Clinton Gandy. I am here for the serenity and freedom. Take my hand , we can find our way together. We can take turns being the smart one, the talented one, the pretty one until we get to the ultimate place in the heart of the universe. The place where we match calamity with serenity, despair becomes hope and peace will extinguish all fears.
My name is Clinton Gandy. I am a 42 year old human on the planet earth. I've made huge mistakes and had fantastical successes. I see, what I look for. What I focus on , expands.
Thank you for adjusting my perception yesterday. I woke up in heaven this morning.
"Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth ?
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
They say in heaven love comes first
We'll make heaven a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth"...............Belinda Carlisle