Sunday, November 30, 2014

I get this on a decent level daily, but i wish I fully comprehended the magnitude that, today is a whole new day filled with unbelievable possibility. I've disconnected myself from hoses that kept attached to the stories of my life to a great extent, that honestly surprises even me. I don't think that fully take in the truth of the matter I still have hoses that tether me to outdated ideas.
The things I carry, from early experience, 20 years ago or 30 years ago limit me. I have more freedom of spirit than I could have ever comprehended possessing. My spirit knows there is even more freedom to be had and I feel a little like a greedy child because I want it. I've tasted the drug of Freedom and without apology, I want more. In order to get the "more" I seek, I've got to make room for it and that means more purging of stories that no long serve me.
When the neighboring town has the "Great East Texas Balloon Race" the word "Tethered" always comes to mind and it's such a great word for my life and my freedom. "Tethered" means- tie with a rope or chain so as to restrict its movement. I work toward an "un-tethered" spirit.
There is a line in 'Shawshank' where Red says "Red: [narrating] I find I'm so excited, I can barely sit still or hold a thought in my head. I think it's the excitement only a free man can feel, a free man at the start of a long journey whose conclusion is uncertain."
I don't get to go that place of freedom for good until I find the tethers and sever them. I guess my prayer today is to be shown the hoses and tubes that still connect me to old hurts and stories that no longer serve my highest good. Let the story that has been told, rest in the place where old stories go when no longer relevant and be done with it.