Thursday, December 22, 2011

It's scary being human.

I've opened up a lot over the last few days. I am much more suceptible to being moved by acts of humanity in front of me. I had to keep myself from crying (good crying) 2 times in the last 24 hours. All my life I have wanted to feel that kind of connection yet I hold myself back from fully enveloping it when it happens because having my shield of  protection down is just creepy. It makes me feel ultra vulnerable but it is a step in the right direction in my journey to being a whole human. It's thrilling but scary and it's alot like riding a roller coaster. I'm scared but something perhaps my soul or the part of me connected to spirit yells , MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.  I'm rolling with it and if I get blindsided, so be it.