Sunday, June 13, 2010

a new done and another chance.

It's morning, not too early. I woke up this a.m. and I had the idea that a whole new day lay ahead of me and with it brought opportunities for me to do stuff differently. Yesterday was uncomfortable tto me regarding my weight and I have a chance to start eating less today, because I woke up in awareness of it.

All my life I have felt like nobody saw the real me, and right now because of using food as a sub for anxiety medication, hell even I can barely recognize the real me.

It's time. It's time for me to start living the life I haven't even allowed my self to hope was possible. I have hope and belief that it really is in the realm of possibility, I just need to bring it fully into myself and do it it.

It has almost been two months since I had any sort of pill for pain or anxiety. There aren't many illnesses where you have to treat so many symptoms before you can attack the illness.