I'm tired and I have such a headache and it's probably caused by holiday stress. I have spent a little too much time being nice lately, nice when I was actually giving parts of my self away when I didn't have it to give. It's mental illness and addiction that tell me I need to be alone in order to get a break from everyone but the fact is I just need to set some boundaries and not let my desire to help someone else hinders my growth. I've been eating like a person who was never going to have access to food again. Trying to fill some void up.