For the first time in almost two months I had a really fitful night of sleep. It was fall asleep for five minutes, jerk awake, look at the clock, flip and flip and repeat and repeat. I didn't get to go to the noon meeting yesterday or today because of the pouring rain and it really takes a toll on my mood when I miss a day, let alone two. I had just started getting ready for the 8pm meeting when my sister called from the car on her way back from a business trip letting me know I needed to take her truck to her work out in BFE and that messed up the 8 oclock plan of mine.
Some days I fill like I am just 2 inches of to the left of center and I just can't get back in the groove. I hate that feeling. All week long I've been medicating something with peanut M&M's. Seriously, I think I ate 7 pounds of them if a family size bag is a pound. That embarassed me so bad when I just saw that in print that I almost deleted it. But I hope there is no shame in telling the truth. I can't absorb any more pain or shame. lol Once a sponge absorbs is capacity it's useless. I don't want to be useless.