I don't have kids, and I would never pretend to understand the level and depth on fear and concern where your kids envolved. But I do think when you feed your fears, they get bigger and they draw in what your most frightened of.
I loved the story of the man in ancient times, in the market place where he was told that death was coming for him this day. He took off running and ran from town all day till he collapsed on a mountain top. Just as he raised up from collapsing the realized death was standing in front of him on this mountain miles from the old mans home.
"how", how did you find me here".
Death said ," Well when I was told where I was going to have to meet you and take you I wondered how you would ever find your way here."
So many times we run toward what we are most afraid of thinking we are running from it.
That is priceless.